tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-256942132011-12-14T19:12:57.179-08:00Blog Usernoreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25694213.post-3900775975945715382010-02-15T17:27:00.000-08:002010-02-15T17:29:57.482-08:00i keep thinking about the past now, almost constantly.<br />ive really messed a lot of things up. ive made a lot<br />of mistakes. i wish my apologies werent so empty.<br />maybe they would have meant something if i didnt<br />spread them so thin... maybe they would have meant<br />something if they were wanted. i cringe at the thought<br />of how much some of you may hate me, or hate who<br />you think i am... and i cringe at the thought of how much<br />i deserve it; how much i would hate me too.<br /><br />somehow i think that everything ive done over the past<br />two years wasnt totally in vain; ive seen and done some<br />amazing things that i wont soon forget, ive apparently<br />left something with most people that have crossed my<br />path as a certain few of them wouldnt be doing some<br />certain things had i not steered them in that direction...<br /><br />but christ if i could twist the past two years back like<br />a record, how id play it different the next time...<br /><br />im never going to have the power to change some<br />people's perception of me, and ill never have the power<br />to seperate the perception and the reality.<br /><br />this is who i am.<br />im sorry i wasnt here then.<br />i wasnt myself then.<br />im me now.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25694213-390077597594571538?l=ocktock.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Blog Usernoreply@blogger.com